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A poem on the homefront

June 17, 2010
by Tora

I’m unpacked and unwinding for a minute. The dogs are dozing away at my feet after a rawkus runaround at the dog park (they sure gave that pitbull a run for its money, playing). It’s a beautiful day and I’m glad to be back from a brief stint in LA. I thought I’d post this link to one of my favorites, a poem by the great Edna St. Vincent Millay. As the wind blows supple through the whispering trees…

http://www.bartleby.com/131/1.html

Tunes from etherworld

June 13, 2010

In LA for a spell. The gods are playing roulette with the weather. Maybe I’m looking at things through east-coast-lenses, cuz ppl seem so placid and undisturbed while I’m being met by sudden attacks of sneezes and sniffles, oh my. I’ll be spending the next day indoors and channel surfing, taking a break from all the go-around of this trip, which has been wonderful so far thanks to my awesome peeps on the west coast.

Tunes? Did I say tunes?

Four new tracks are online now. Two songs may sound familiar from earlier versions that were but briefly revealed. We added some synth tracks, new vocals, and remixed’em while we recorded and mixed the entirely new songs. So that’s the word.

Good nite,

xo tora

The mystic eyeball in the studio

May 16, 2010

So I woke up that morning with a fever and sore throat. Did I let that deter me? Nah!! The good spirits were with us from Day 1 and the alchemists were in. It was Ronen on drums, Iakov on guitar and bass, Ben Lindell manning the board. Also in the house were my dear friends Joe Berger and George Geshner providing all the good vibes you could ever ask for, and Mike Murphy holding down like an unperturbed knight in viking armor. To me it was like a $1,000,000/hr recording session, except, and the metaphor continues to be apt, we only had very limited time to record. So we tore through the songs like fire blazing through a tinder forest. It was the first stage of fleshing out these demo freshies that’s part of my top-secret project that I’m not at liberty to speak of just yet.

However, the photos from the mystic eyeball will give you a hint of what’s to come. Believe me, I’d love to divulge more info. The new songs are like hott-rocks from the underworld still in transport. I’m bursting at the seams to tell of the coming rapture!!! Soon, my peeps, very soon. Ohhhyeeaaa.

Only the Brava

May 3, 2010

Oh naw. I want it. I want it now. This is too good.

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it’s not cologne. it’s eau de toilette. and it’s more badass than superman.

Classic moment

April 28, 2010

The camera cuts out at an abrupt 30 seconds, but you get the idea. I got to see one of the most amazing songwriters of, well — ever! How lucky was I??? Billy Steinberg wrote hits like “Alone”, “Like a Virgin”, “I Touch Myself”, “Eternal Flame” — most of which he performed on a lone guitar that day on the Expo stage. Just to give you an idea of his esteemedness, his songs are the stuff that songwriters drool and torture themselves over. Yes, we wanna write songs that sound like that. I got to sing along as he sang “Like a Virgin” and that really made me smile. Then this song. He closed the entire Expo with this one. Brought the house down. I only wish I got a better recording!

The shy face of spring returns

March 26, 2010

Been away from the bloggie since the last winter. I refer not only to the season that just bid its farewell in the jolly northern hemisphere, but I also call attention to the fact that I just lived through the last real winter of my life.

My yoga practice has revealed a few things to my searching soul during these past months of ice and rain, sleet and snow. One is that, in no way shape or form am I a cold-weather person in the slightest –

the body and mind rebel, the soul searches for the fragrant sun of yesterday, for the winter speaks in breaths unkind

I have decided I’ve suffered my last wintery climate. While I still love New York with all my urban-concrete heart, I shall endeavor, like the passionate surfers ever following their beloved wave, to follow the sun for the rest of my warm-weather life.

Now, I expect to sail through certain wintry scenarios with great gusto and snowball-tossing, as for my next tour and travels, and that is all fine by me as I won’t actually be calling home to such situations. It’s a lifestyle change indeed, not in the least unaffected by another recent lifestyle change…

I quit drinking this year. It’s not quite as black and white as it seems. I’ll have a glass of wine every now and again with a compatibly righteous meal — ahem, there is justice in that still — yet the change has been an enormous one for me. In one decadent evening I used to throw back two or three bottles of wine easy and either suffer a nasty hangover or not, depending on the quality of the draught and the state of my health at the time. In effect, I was performing the ritual a few times a week, drinking everyday for sure.

And then, I didn’t even consciously try. I just did as my body told me. I started a conversation in yoga along with a new relationship in my life, which seemed to put me aright in some ways, and I stopped. I just stopped on a dime. I didn’t want to taste a single drop of drink anymore. I could have just tapered off, but I’ve always been of an excessive temperament. Not drinking was miserable for its side effects and such, but I had no real complaints because it just felt right. While I’ve come out the detox stage feeling fairly clearheaded and balanced, I do admit to a new way of being in the world now that’s all rather Dali-esque to me.

I just can’t believe how absolutely everything affects me so deeply now. I’ve left myself vulnerable and anxious to life and I feel it all the time. It’s not like I was so terribly numb to it all before — I just had a different way of dealing with things. Now it’s all there on my plate waving Hi at me, stacked up on top of each other til it’s all at eye-level and staring me down.

I write. Every five minutes there’s something else I must say, there’s constant traffic now, and I pick up my guitar again. Just as life took a turn that I did not expect, the music has taken a whole new direction. How perfectly mirrored we are in what we create. I am taking in the springtime in all its happy morbidity. I hope to have a new tune posted soon.

Meanwhile, I gotta say that Katharine Hepburn had it right. A glass of milk with dinner is a revelation.

Year of the Tiger (photos)

February 26, 2010

Didn’t know what the background image was until I saw the photos myself. All I can say is I had fun playing this brief set, and there was nothing political about it. Met a lot of lovely wonderful creative people that night. Thank you to Jay Li for the photos and keeping my camera safe even when things got a bit chaotic.

K, back to writing…..

To my lost ones in the north

February 14, 2010

I’m sure they don’t believe they’re lost — they’re only lost to me, since I’ve never met my family in the North half of Korea. It’s a matter of perspective, as with much else in life. I am, myself, born of South Korea, my aunts, uncles, cousins and one grandmother, born of South Korea. We have cell phones, gaming and internet shopping. We have cars and pizza. We’ve been lucky enough to take electricity for granted. Things they have little to none of, in North Korea.

My parents were born when their parents were, quite literally, on the run. Bombs falling everywhere, they were diving into ditches in the countryside. It was the mad dash from the North, the specter of a divided nation growing dark and real in their desperate hearts. Families were being split by the second because war is as real as life and death. If you had the will to live, what else could you do but run??

There’s whole clans of direct-line relatives from 3 of my grandparents’ sides that I’ve never met. I used to wonder about them when I was little, though it was more of a generalized, “do they wear grey all the time? How about gruel? Do they eat anything else but gruel?” Of course they had neither toys to play with, nor television nor really warm coats to wear in their famine-encrusted winters. It wasn’t fun to imagine life in the North, but intriguing nonetheless.

This morning I came across something that reminds me that anything and all is possible:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/travel/2010/feb/14/northkorea

Barely 1,500 people visit North Korea a year
The British-run Koryo Tours offers guided tours from Beijing to Pyongyang, North Korea

It’s difficult to understand how anyone could have family members somewhere in the world, but never have met them when it is at all times a real possibility. Even distant relatives. That, my friend, is a couch to crash on. That, my friend, is stories around the fire at night. That, my friend, is whole parts of you that go on breathing and feeling without you even knowing. How well could you claim to know yourself?

And now, the possibility of my meeting my lost family has become a bit more real. We shall see it happen, my friends, and we shall see it sooner than we think. Maybe we are all lost family to each other?

Someone recently said, draw a circle around the ones you love, not a heart. Because a heart can break while a circle goes on forever. On this Valentine’s Day, along with the ones I’ve come to know and cherish in my life, I’m gonna take the opportunity to also draw a circle around the family whom I’ve never known, whose names have never broken the seal around my ears, whose faces have never lit up with life before me. I will think about my lost ones and I look forward to the day when I will meet them, in this life and in these times, when the specter dies, at least for a moment. We will all be together, happy and drinking together like we had always known each other, knowing how very precious every moment is when you are with your own, and countries and hearts are whole once again.

Because the specter is real, my friends. Without it, life would not be the vivid gift that it is.

Rehearsal @ Gibson Studios

February 10, 2010

U know I hit that. It sat hulking in the corner, like a big shiny lollipop. That big, red shiny Baldwin baby grand. Mommy, I want one!!! Now!!!!!!

Sitting in the Gibson rehearsal studio, in the former Hit Factory building of legend, I thought, “It’ll look fabulous in the living room of my beach house where everything else, all furnishings and such, shall be ultra-blankly-white. It’ll be the icing on the cake.” Yep, I’m always thinking and taking notes on taste, among other things of interest.

Rehearsal was fun with Dusty, Dan, Michael and Jenelle, as we did a run through of our songs for Thursday’s Lovers’ Concert. I’m excited to play these covers with such a lovely, talented bunch! It’ll be an all-out luscious evening of music, kisses and lollipops.

Year of the Tiger

February 7, 2010

I’m deadly fast. That’s what the front of my Tshirt tells me. In French, Swahili and Swedish. Trust me when I say it to be true. Rawrrr.

This next show comes from my friend Diana. She approached me to perform in this year’s Lunar New Year Festival, hosted by her rollicking network of sexy culture mavens at asianinnyc.com. Though the actual year turns resplendent Tiger on February 14th (yes, the same day as resplendent V-day), the event itself happens February 20th. I say any event that’s worthy of being deemed an event should stretch on for at least one week. This one lasts a full year. Wha?

Year of the Tiger

au revoir mes enfants

xo